Monday, 29 February 2016

I Don't Understand...

This weeks prompt is: I don't understand... 

We could be here for a while. I don't understand SO many things. Like, for instance, people. What are they about? So weird.

Plus, I don't understand Twatter and I'm hopeless with technology, despite having a blog. It's pretty obvious, isn't it? Sigh.

One of the thing that I REALLY don't understand is why bad things always happen to good people while arseholes roam the Earth unscathed and blissfully unaware that they are, in fact, arseholes.

I also don't understand:

Small talk
My kids homework
Morning people. And basically just people, period, as I've already mentioned.
Almost anything that other people find entertaining and fun. Think sport, nightclubs, amusement park rides or taking drugs. Yep, I'm a real barrel of laughs!

But anyway, enough of the boring lists of things I don't understand. I didn't want to bang on about my cancer 'journey' all the time in this space, but last Friday I got THE BEST news!

The professor type lady from the Familial Cancer Service rang me to inform me that my test results came back clear! This means I don't have any mutant genes! There is no increased risk of it returning in the other breast, or of ovarian cancer and no need for any further surgery!!!!!! WOO HOO!! I'm slightly ecstatic right now!

This makes me realise that I really don't understand how or why life is such a random lottery.  I don't understand why one person has a cancer diagnosis, breast or otherwise, and they can be going strong decades later, while another person isn't. While I'm more positive that I'm going be the former, there is always that teensy bit of uncertainty.

I've never been good at embracing uncertainty or change, so this is going to be a big lesson at learning to live with something huge that I don't understand.

Which brings me to all the inspirational sayings and memes. This one popped up in my Facebook newsfeed yesterday.

But I'm starting to think it's more of a 50/50 proposition. Life is 50 percent what happens to you and 50 percent how you react. In fact, I wonder if we have less control than we think over both of these things. 

For instance, you may have a picture in your mind of you think you'd react to a specific situation, but you honestly have no idea how you'd really react unless it really happens. And if that reaction isn't always positive, it's not a sign of weakness. I may be straying off topic here a bit, but I thought this kind of ties in with how I don't understand the whole 'life is a random lottery' thing. 

Having said that, maybe I should buy a lottery ticket after my good news last week? Of course, that was actually a better feeling than winning the lottery! But then again, I've never won the lottery so how would I know? If some one could please arrange a lottery win for me, so I can test my theory? Thanks! 

What do you not understand? 

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  1. Def get a lotto ticket!! I'm also with you on the 50%/50% (or even 70%/30% because having someone nick $20 or getting a parking ticket isn't the same as having to flee Syria or losing your entire family in a car how you react may have a big impact, but the sh#t that's hailing down on you definitely makes a difference.

  2. I tell my kids this.. I don't usually put figures on it though.. Life is not what you get.. It's how you deal with it

  3. You should come and Twat with me!

  4. Such wonderful news Ness. I am very relieved, not as much as you.
    Cancer is such a scourge, it's cruel and heartless and hell on earth.
    I don;t understand it either.

  5. Cancer sucks. It doesn't discriminate and it isn't fair. But I'm so very happy that you got some good news! Go buy that lottery ticket!!!

  6. I'm so glad you've had a good report from the doctor! I'm with you on the whole "why do bad things happen to good people" and yet some of the worst / shonkiest people I know seem to prosper in every way?!

  7. No mutant genes is awesome! I don't understand morning people either. I live with one...although his idea of morning is generally when it's still dark so maybe he is a backwards night owl.

  8. Exciting news. My Mum used to say (probably still does) that 'you are only given as much as you can handle'. At the time we might not think we can but it makes you stronger. I still don't think that really works in with some things though. I'm glad you got great results, enjoy that high. We know two ladies who had breast cancer at the same time, one was as bad as you could get, the other not. The lady who was the worst case is still with us today and fighting fit over 10years later. Maybe a lot is will power and determination to beat it as well. Maybe that fits in with the 'when it is your time ...' A bit of a dampener on your happiness, sorry.
    I don't really understand people either, by the way, or maths, or fashion, or twitter, or all those things you mentioned about people's entertainment habits.
    Go out and celebrate!!!

  9. I am so happy for you about the no cancer news. I don't get why bad shit happens to good people. No fair.

  10. I definitely agree that you don't know how you would react to something until it happens to you! I do know that I reacted with a big smile when I read on Facey that you got the all clear!!